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Time flies - I didn't realise it's been almost a week since I wrote last! The reason is that I have tried to catch up on reading, and have succeeded pretty well. Lots of diet books - just to stay informed a little bit, and maybe find some inspiration. I did find some reading "My Big Fat Greek Diet" - the metamorphosis this man went through is incredible. But I agree with him - it's important to change life as well. I think that being overweight may express a certain amount of unhappiness, although it's not always the case, so the underlying reasons need to get addressed instead of wanting a miracle cure to go on with the same stuff just weighing x kilograms less. This just does not work. I remember a woman I knew around here - she underwent gastric bypass and pretty much changed her life as well, for the next time I met her she was divorced. I have not heard from her ever since and probably won't run into her anymore around here, but it makes sense in a way.
What do I want in my life to change? Well, of course I keep thinking about going elsewhere. And I'm preparing the IELTS, stuff like that, becaus I know that once I'm 45 it will be too late to apply for a visa to immigrate to Oz... and I would regret not having tried, whatever the outcome will be. But let's stay realistic - if this does not work out, something else will, and I have learned that it is not always wise to keep pushing legs. But yes, a change of climate and mentality would be exciting... once more. We've been living in this house for 11 years now which is my absolute eprsonal record, so we'll see if we will top this :-) But on a more tangible level I have decided to go on with another study, and then will put that to work. Nutritional coaching, or something like that. Taking care of kids and house is a satisfying and rewarding task but it will not last - and I'm not counting on grandchildren to go on with it. So this is my personal project for change in my life - taking more charge of the rest of my life by making small and steady steps into that direction.
Anna seems to have decided to homeschool for two more years - until secondary school. Fine - if she accepts that I need time for myself, especially for studying and reading. I finished the book on Atkins Diet and Philosophy, by the way, which was a very inspiring read and at times downright funny. Now I have some Nietzsche books to go on with, which might be harder to swallow. But then I never have read much Nietzsche, maybe I will even like it and find it not hard at all. Next week will tell.
Another one was Mireille Guiliano - a real head-shaker, so to say. Incredible how someone can play on those old stereotypes, fill a whole book with it and still make money out of derivatives - there's even a web site on how to become a "French woman". Am I glad not to be one... but really, I'm glad to have it bought used, for one euro, and wouldn't have bought it in a shop. Some of what she writes makes sense, but it's been timeless wisdom like sitting down for meals, taking the stairs now and then, etc. No rocket science! This book is pretty close to what I wexpected from thumbing through it in a bookshop. Goodness, and so many recipes to pump some volume into it. Maybe I should jump on the bandwagon and write something about German women who are not fat and get what they aim for, some stuff like that - with all those philosophers as heritage. But no, that's not one of my priorities right now.
I read some more books on weight, body image etc but already put them in the shelves upstairs. Right now I'm devouring Charlotte Kasl's "Many Roads, One Journey" and the Nearings' "Good Life". Not totally on target with eating, but for the bigger picture. And really, eating becomes less important the more I concentrate on what I really would like for my life. Today we went to an open day at the school where they train guide dogs for bling people. They had some wonderful Linzertorte and I enjoyed one piece of it (not even a whole one as Huub took a hearty bite) but that was it, and I felt fine with that. Rather for the taste than to stuff myself. Whereas we were at David's place yesterday and the cake he served was yucky - probably store-bought marble cake. I took a thin slice and was not tempted at all after that one. I find I'm eating more selectively, in a way, this stuff is not beyond limits like I used to tell myself, maybe that's why it's not even that tempting to have it.
Weight-wise I stepped on the scales this morning (oops... I did it again, to say it with B.Sp.) well knowing that it's full moon which means my monthly time of feeling watery and a bi bloated, but anyway... it read 63.4 which is okay. My mother called me today and said that she weighed 50 kg, which ratehr scared me. She had mentioned that she had become pretty thin because she can't eat a lot of things anymore, and vomited a lot as well some time ago, but I had not expected her to be so light. I wonder how she looks... good that we're going there in two weeks because I feel that it might not be long anymore. But then, who knows. Sometimes the people who think they'll leave soon stay around the longest.
Anyway that's my little update, things are going o.k. and I wonder where I'll be in 25 weeks.
What do I want in my life to change? Well, of course I keep thinking about going elsewhere. And I'm preparing the IELTS, stuff like that, becaus I know that once I'm 45 it will be too late to apply for a visa to immigrate to Oz... and I would regret not having tried, whatever the outcome will be. But let's stay realistic - if this does not work out, something else will, and I have learned that it is not always wise to keep pushing legs. But yes, a change of climate and mentality would be exciting... once more. We've been living in this house for 11 years now which is my absolute eprsonal record, so we'll see if we will top this :-) But on a more tangible level I have decided to go on with another study, and then will put that to work. Nutritional coaching, or something like that. Taking care of kids and house is a satisfying and rewarding task but it will not last - and I'm not counting on grandchildren to go on with it. So this is my personal project for change in my life - taking more charge of the rest of my life by making small and steady steps into that direction.
Anna seems to have decided to homeschool for two more years - until secondary school. Fine - if she accepts that I need time for myself, especially for studying and reading. I finished the book on Atkins Diet and Philosophy, by the way, which was a very inspiring read and at times downright funny. Now I have some Nietzsche books to go on with, which might be harder to swallow. But then I never have read much Nietzsche, maybe I will even like it and find it not hard at all. Next week will tell.
Another one was Mireille Guiliano - a real head-shaker, so to say. Incredible how someone can play on those old stereotypes, fill a whole book with it and still make money out of derivatives - there's even a web site on how to become a "French woman". Am I glad not to be one... but really, I'm glad to have it bought used, for one euro, and wouldn't have bought it in a shop. Some of what she writes makes sense, but it's been timeless wisdom like sitting down for meals, taking the stairs now and then, etc. No rocket science! This book is pretty close to what I wexpected from thumbing through it in a bookshop. Goodness, and so many recipes to pump some volume into it. Maybe I should jump on the bandwagon and write something about German women who are not fat and get what they aim for, some stuff like that - with all those philosophers as heritage. But no, that's not one of my priorities right now.
I read some more books on weight, body image etc but already put them in the shelves upstairs. Right now I'm devouring Charlotte Kasl's "Many Roads, One Journey" and the Nearings' "Good Life". Not totally on target with eating, but for the bigger picture. And really, eating becomes less important the more I concentrate on what I really would like for my life. Today we went to an open day at the school where they train guide dogs for bling people. They had some wonderful Linzertorte and I enjoyed one piece of it (not even a whole one as Huub took a hearty bite) but that was it, and I felt fine with that. Rather for the taste than to stuff myself. Whereas we were at David's place yesterday and the cake he served was yucky - probably store-bought marble cake. I took a thin slice and was not tempted at all after that one. I find I'm eating more selectively, in a way, this stuff is not beyond limits like I used to tell myself, maybe that's why it's not even that tempting to have it.
Weight-wise I stepped on the scales this morning (oops... I did it again, to say it with B.Sp.) well knowing that it's full moon which means my monthly time of feeling watery and a bi bloated, but anyway... it read 63.4 which is okay. My mother called me today and said that she weighed 50 kg, which ratehr scared me. She had mentioned that she had become pretty thin because she can't eat a lot of things anymore, and vomited a lot as well some time ago, but I had not expected her to be so light. I wonder how she looks... good that we're going there in two weeks because I feel that it might not be long anymore. But then, who knows. Sometimes the people who think they'll leave soon stay around the longest.
Anyway that's my little update, things are going o.k. and I wonder where I'll be in 25 weeks.
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